My parents are not Christians, definitely far from being
perfect and far from the type of people who strives for righteousness.. yet and
tho my parents are not perfect and completely a sinner, they showed me
unconditional love.. They are the people in my life who will never leave me..
I’ve been brought up by my parents in a kinda like military
way of disciplining, they are really strict. They always have high expectations
with me and always proud of my achievements when I was a kid. Back then I am a
very silent and submissive kid, until I rebel as a daughter, because youth are
fools..
My dad and mom never lacked in giving parental guidance, lessons and advise,
they always feed me and teach me noble things, right attitude, values and good
character. They always teach me what is good, tho they themselves often fail to
walk the talk. Hehehe
My mom, tho she is not Born Again Christian like me right
now, She a GOD fearing Catholic believer , she has taught me how to fear GOD and
to kneel and pray.
My dad, he is a Catholic-Buddist Chinese tradition typical Chinese,
I really don’t know what is his stand, hehehe but he taught me to respect old
people.
the time I rebel, GOD has HIS way to be a Father to me, everything is under HIS
control.
I have slept 3 times (3 separate season) as an adult like a baby in my parents
bed, sleeping in between them so that I will be comforted by my mom and be able
to sleep and not cry because of heartache, it was the 3 times my heart was
broken for loving someone so much, a realization that I will always go back to
my parents when the person I chose to love left me, I realization that my
parents deserves my love more. That despite hurting them for not being a good
daughter, still unconditionally they will love me. And they cry when my heart
cry, remember I am their first born baby.
After the 3rd heartbreak, I promise myself and to
GOD to love them much, and never to sleep in between them again because I should
have matured in life, that the next time I will fall in love, I’ll make sure it
will be the wisest decision. To better make sure that I will give my parents
the peace of mind that I will be love the way they love me.
Many opportunities comes my way, but it is not for me to
grab. I should be wise, to honor GOD and my parents. It is better for me to be
single forever than to marry someone whom I will regret for the rest of my life
and not become holy-holier in the sight of my Father GOD.
Another thing, GOD is a jealous GOD, HE wants all my
attention and love for HIM, so anyone who I will seem to love more than HIM, HE
is taking them away from me, but through that, I grow in love with HIM more..
HE is my Father, whom I really fear and love. Praise GOD.. HE deserves it all. J
