In my dream, I was with a friend, she is touring me in Davao, dumaan kami sa mga houses sa Davao, it’s a hotel daw? Parang tourist rent spaces na houses or commercial houses, where there are no much commercial spaces tenants purus residential tenants lang, so madami talagang vancant, nadaanan namin madaming Chinese na nag aalay…nag ooffer ng mga thanks giving nila sa mga patay and saints, then pumasok kami sa isang house, there was my family, nag aalay, not much food compare sa neighbour na andun at nag aalay din, hindi siya full ng mga alay na food, but full siya ng mga incense and pang alay na mga parng amulets and figures, I sat and watch and tell my mom na mali yun, then sabi niya na I should do etong pag aalay kase eto ang tama, ma-blebless daw me and ma-gigive ang mga dreams and wants ko.. I said no.. after a while may kinuha me isang red na square na pang alay ata yun with a chinese charater on it, all I have to do is kinda light it ata or just place it near the wall para mag start na siya, at first sabi ko daw ok im just going to light it lang naman kaya walang masama, but yung motive ng heart ko is to have the blessings na sinasabi ng mom ko, to have all the things I want to have.. then nung palapit na ako sa wall where ilalagay ko yun, bigla ko naisip na mali pa din yun, im not glorifying GOD, and what a shame for me to do this just to have worldly blessings here on earth, so tinapon ko siya, yung red na square, my mom said why? sabay sabi ko I won’t do this, mali eto, then dun na nag start lahat… bigla umusok yung red na square parang incense siya, then may nagalit sakin, si satan yun, medyo magulo na yung mga nangyayari, ang bilis ng mga pangyayari, yung place masyadong smoky na, and naririnig ko siya nag sasalita sa dream ko that time galit nag galit sakin si satan, family ko were there pero wala sila ginagawa they watch me lang how satan attacked me, madami akong pain physically na-feel sa dream ko kase galit siya sakin sa ginawa ko, but I can’t remember na now mga ginawa niya, all the time one thing im sure I keep on calling the name of GOD.. satan seems to appear in all places sa dream ko… sa lahat.. even sa screen ng laptop… it was really scary, but by this time unlike sa other dreams ko, I can’t remember the face of him, then I saw a mini portal sa wall… una sabi ko k mama mukhang portal yun to his side, then eventually lumalaki yung portal, para siyang isang hole na tumatagos yung hands ko.. so I prayed….i keep on praying praying….then bigla andun yung aunt ko,my mom youngest sister, she was sitting on the floor na mukhang kaka anak lang, then I saw a baby near the portal na that time e palaki palang, andun banda nakaupo aunt ko, then sabi ko paano nag ka baby dito, then nasa parang cacha clothe siya o sako, then ginawa I lifted the baby along with the clothe, I didn’t even touched his flesh, then I threw him back sa portal sabi ko there you belong son of satan, sa loob ng portal nasilip ko, para siyang kakaiba, para siyang , old stadium na hindi mala Romans or Greek type stadium, I can remember it now but don’t know how to describe it, its dimmy but not super dark, but wala rin sunshine dun, parang yung stadium may malaking ring match na execution hall…??? Anyway, kumuha ako ng tubig, then sabi ko hindi eto holy water but sabi ko mainit na yung portal at lumalki, alam mo ano istura ng wall, alam mo ang papel na nasusunog? Same ganun way nasusunog yung wall, hinagis ko yung water unti unti sa portal while praying, parang walang na nangyari, the whole time I just keep on praying, then yung aunt ko bumangon and hinahanap yung baby niya, sabi ko tinapon ko nga and my family din yun din ang sabi, sinugod niya ako, she grab me, super strong siya super lakas niya, sinasaktan niya ako, kaya niya ako i-lift and ang sakit ng mga kamay niya, ang tulis ng mga nails niya, malaki mata niya while telling me na bakit mo ginawa yun? Bakit mo hinagis dun? Alam mo ba kung gaano kahirap at katagal i-concieve nung baby na yun, I keep on explaining to her na the baby is not 100% human, hindi siya tao, and yun yung tama ibalik siya dun, then again I pray, I pray, I pray…binitawan na niya ako, then nakita ko yung wall nag start na bumalik sa normal lumiliit yung portal, then sabi ko how come? hindi naman holy water yung tinapon ko dun na water and I even ask my self, true ba na may holy water? Then , I realize sa dream ko na holy yung water kase Iam praying earnestly nung hinahagis ko yun, so kumuha again me ng tubig mas madami, then I started basain mga computers then tama nga nawawala si satan.. the house is full of smoke diba and mainit, para siyang nasususnog yung feeling inside pero walang fire, binasa ko ng binasa lahat sa loob ng house, until maging normal na again sa loob ng house, then I prayed again and I thank GOD na hindi niya ako iniwan and super powerful siya and im so sorry na muntik me maka gawa ng mali that time sa dream ko, I first thought of na this is just little mistake, wala naman masama if gawin ko din… but hindi ganun yun eh…
1Samuel 15:22 “Does the Lord delight in offering and sacrifices as much as in obeying the voice of the Lord? To obey is better that sacrifice, and to heed is better than the fat of rams.”
This is the only verse umiikot sa utak ko while im writing this….Im so thankful that GOD is with me in my dreams but so sorry that a part of me failed and that part of me did want or was tempted to have this earthly promises….but here I learned.
