Tears of a woman

little boy: why do you cry?
mother: because I am a woman
....little boy don't understand

mother hugs the little boy ans said...
mother: and you will never understand.

little boy: why does mommy cry?
father: all women cry easily for no reason.

... when little boy became and adult he asked GOD..
adult man: GOD, why do women cry so easily?
GOD answer:
When I created women, she needed to be special, I created her shoulder strong enough to bear the weight of the world.. and soft enough to give comfort..I gave her the strength to give life..the kind that accepts the rejection that often comes from children.. I gave the strength to allow her to go on when everybody else gives up. the kind that tales care of her family, despite illness and fatigue. I gave her the sensitivity to love her children unconditionally. Even when they have hurt her deeply. I gave her the strength to endure her husband in his faults. and to stay at his side without weakening and finally I gave her tears to shed whenever she needs them to be shed.
You see my son, the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, nor is it in her face or in the way she does her hair.
The beauty of a woman resides in her eyes. It is the door to her heart, the door where love resides. And it is through her tears that you see her heart go by.

misinterpreted kindness

today, this is what i pray..

may the kindness that i am doing may not be misinterpreted..

many times when i showed kindness to people, i am judge and misinterpreted..

some thought maybe it is for a reason or for a purpose..

i am hurt.. but

i just kept telling myself it is between them and GOD if they will judge me that way..

as long as my intentions and motives are clear.. i am clear..

i always pray to GOD that and may my intentions be clear with what i do..

the feeling is like suffering for doing what is good..

then repeatedly i have to think that

what is forgiveness?

what is forgiveness?
a question i have been asking myself for the last few months. it is the process of accepting the damage that has been done and the reality of things cannot be changed. A stage in life where we learn and grow.

to go through pain is a struggle, and to go through forgiveness is also a struggle. who says to forgive is not as painful as to be hurt? it is. but, to forgive someone has a package of peace.
to forgive is a decision over emotion. it is forgetting the damage and fighting the memory of the past.

the past months, I've been thinking of forgiving a person who have caused me so much emotional pain and trouble. i can forgive him in my heart, for that is what I've been praying for, and that is the will of GOD. but of course reconciliation should be initiated by him, for he haven't repented and asked for forgiveness. in this situation, i can conclude that the level of pain comes from the level of love we had/have for a person.

last Sunday, Reverend Danny Reyes talked about forgiveness in pulpit. i have learned that when someone have done a bad thing to a person we can always thought of intelligent move/ways to make that person feel hard towards what he has done. like what David asked to Joab when he killed Abner, David asked Joab to mourn for Abner, and tore his clothes and wear sackcloth, where in fact Joab is rejoicing for Abner's death, can you imagine how difficult for it for Joab. another thing when people have cause us trouble or give us pain, we can pray for them and give the revenge in GOD's hand, GOD is just, HE knows our heart and HE knows the truth, HE has HIS own way, HE punished those who have done wicked things.

when we forgive, peace is with us, and GOD is happy. for HE HIMSELF is forgiving to those who repent. In the end, i can say that forgiveness is a gift, a gift of love. it is the love we can give to those who have sinned against us and underserving of forgiveness.