The feeling is different if you know what’s your burden, what GOD has planned for you. Who you would be, what role you would do in this life to glorify HIM… sometimes it is something you do before, you are before, but we know that nothing is permanent in this World that you happen to change and now you’re not into it, before your reason is for your own, now if you know that it is GOD’s burden for you, if its GOD’s calling, the burden is like a purpose and a duty that GOD called you to do for HIS glory. You’re going to do it not for you’re sake but for other’s, a very unselfish task and service.
This burden seems to be hard, now I understand how difficult it is to know you’re burden, it is totally going to a direction in life that you didn’t planned, but HE did. Before I already got the sense maybe that is my calling but.. I ignore it many times for I don’t want it, but last night upon analyzing, finalizing, realizing that I already know it I wanted to kneel down and cry, cry for help and asked why… because it seems to be hard and impossible, it is a life that I have already turned my back on. It is really hard, even if before I was once on that path. But I remember GOD and HIS Words, that if it is GOD’s will it won’t be that hard at all, He will lead, direct and guide me, and nothing is impossible for I have HIM. And if ever that I’ll have a difficult life because of fulfilling what HE has called me, it is okey, I’ll bear the pain and hardship because if it is for GOD, it is all worth it c”,)
Maybe guys, you are wondering how did I came to know what is GOD’s planned for me, it just happen that my heart cries every time I feel so helpless with the situation, feeling the chorus part in the song of Hosanna, more and more penetrating my senses (Clear my heart and make it clean, open up my eyes to the things unseen, Show me how to love like you have love me, Break my heart for what breaks yours, Everything Iam is for your kingdoms cause), so helpless that why can’t I do something so that this won’t happen, this and that, and now its clear, that I felt this because HE wants me to do something about this… then I asked how and why, then HE give me the answer… and that is now my calling c”,) I will just pray for HIM (and guys hope you pray for me to…) that may GOD be with me in this task, so that I will be able to do it, in me bestest, for HIS glory. c”,)
I always believe that a powerful warrior needs a battalion of prayers c”,) Do YOU agree??? hehehe
sorry for some, i intentionally didn't specify yung GOD's calling for me... i want it to be between me and GOD.. Iam also a private person hahaha its kinda not obvious lang hehehe
