oh GOD im sick today....

Im so sick today.. as in.. pumasok me ng office for one hour after unuwi na.. hindi ko na kaya kung pipilitin ko pa.. actually hindi ko na pinilit mag swim today even na-addict na ko mag swim everyday… baka kase hindi pa ko gumaling agad… last sunday kase masama na pakiramdam ko nung umaga after church service.. but nag swim pa din me before meeting my friends… tigas kase ulo ko.. sabi ko sa sarili ko… yung sakit… its all in the mind.. after swimming nawala yung feeling sick… after on the way na ako with my friends to meet them…nanghina uli me.. as in.. but sabi ko tuloy ko pa din meet sila its all in the mind yung sickness na na-feel ko… tapus after uwi na ko… nung gabi really feel sick.. but ignore ko pa din… so nag usap pa ko sa mga friends ko sa phone… hay til 12.. but several friends naman… worth it naman yung talks so no regret… isang friend ko pa dun medyo tagal kami hindi nag usap and ok na kami after that… bati na hehe.. anyway.. Monday came… pag ka gising ko feelings super sick nako.. hindi ko talaga kaya bangon sa kama to start my day but inisip ko pa din its all in the mind… so pumasok me office somehow nag work hehe tapus afternoon I dare to swim pa.. kase nga I enjoy my time swimming alone.. feeling the water.. after feeling better again me.. umuwi me nag dinner.. then okey hindi na kinaya ng katawan ko… humiga me sa bed then yun bagsak na me.. tulog me for 3 hours masakit na kase katawan ko fever na hehe..but inisip ko pa din… its all in the mind.. so today gumising me… terrible.. pumasok pa din me sa office but I really know na hindi ko na kaya talaga.. dapat nga may group saturation pa kami e, buti hindi tuloy kase if not iisipin ko again na its all in the mind tapus mag heavy work again me.. buti cancel so pinag isipan ko pa mabuti if mag swim me or uwi nalang to rest… so I decided na umuwi at huwag na mag swim kase yung sakit ko hindi na its all in the mind eh… its in my system na eh .. in my body na eh hehehe it get worst…hehe but wait… umuwi me at bring home ko work ko hahaha kaya kanina nag wowork me sa house hehehehe yun lang naman ang story ng sakit ko… sana heal na ko ni GOD hehe.. soon.. hirap ng feeling eh…and I miss to swim na…alone… hehehehe

My office place is a dangerous battle field. Making me decide and giving me the thought to quit the job I love.

My office place is a dangerous battle field. The past month pressured and stressed na stressed talaga me sa work ko… even I love my work… stressed ako.. Parang they’re making me decide or giving me the thought to quit the job I love. At first bulok systema ng company… dami problema sa company itself kahit na malaki and matagal na.. policy and rules niya baluktot…. Ang mga nasa top position… they are all like in an acting job… may personalan… etc.. nakaka stressed din ang mga clients.. dami prob about them… which is normal sa job na eto.. nakaka pressured ang maka benta.. kase laki ng quota tapus ang hirap pa mag hanap ng client at mag papunta ng client… and lastly just today ang laki ng stressed ko sa mga ka-officemates ko… they’re ethics are gone… they act as if they don’t fear GOD, nag susulutan sila ng clients, nagkaka roon ng labanan.. stories arises… hindi mo na talaga maintindihan kung sino ang nag sasabi ng totoo.. sino paniniwalaan… nagsisiraan sila…. even mga christian dito sa office involve…sila din ang mga kasama sa agawan ng clients… nakaka sad how and why nag kaka ganyan sila… napapa tanong me sa if gagawin ko din ba ang ginagawa nila… kase if you don’t fight the way they fight sa battle field.. you will not survive… kase sa nakita ko ang work namin sa office… parang survivor… if you don’t survive… goodbye.. tanggal ka… so… napaisip me… I love my work eh.. I still want to stay…. so… I pause…..napaisip me… doing what they do doesn’t make me any different from them…….which is I know what they do is wrong and not inspiring at all.. instead irritating… also what they do is not glorifying GOD.. I see them as animals.. as a scavenger… who only fights for life.. loving life…. And not knowing how to love at all... all they love is this world…. Sad…

How to Tell if a Guy Is Cheating

1. He's superprotective of his gadgets. "The main way that trysts are found out is through the discovery of incriminating e-mails, IM chats, cell phone texts or bills," says Belisa Vranich, PsyD, a clinical psychologist in New York City. So if he's being unfaithful, he may guard his gadgets or act really defensive when you innocently touch his phone or computer. It should be a giant red flag if he readily gave you passwords in the past, and now he's more evasive.

2. He steps up the grooming. This is so obvious, but it's a sign many women miss: "If your man starts grooming more without you requesting it, that could be an indication that he's getting intimate with someone else," says Vranich. You can actually thank modern mass media for this tipoff. Guys today are used to viewing manscaped dudes onscreen, so if he has another chick to impress with his appearance, he may emulate those ultra-trimmed guys. Another clue: He's spending more time at the gym.

3. He smells different. "When he comes home, if he doesn't smell the same as he did in the morning, and it isn't the scent of soap in the gym or at your home, it may be because he's showered at her place," offers Vranich. So pay attention, because in this case, that old saying "the nose knows" might very well be true.

4. Nothing fazes him anymore. "If he was short-tempered before, a combination of added intimacy and attention could be making him way more relaxed, even downright giddy," Vranich says. Adds Mira Kirshenbaum, author of "When Good People Have Affairs: Inside the Hearts and Minds of People in Two Relationships": " If your guy is suddenly going around all happy and whistling, then you need to find out why."

5. He becomes suspicious of you. "If he's normally a mellow type, all of a sudden he may want to know where you are all the time and with whom," says Vranich. "It's the result of him realizing that if he's cheating and it's not that hard, you might also be getting away with it." Also, beware of extremely detailed responses to even your most innocent "How was work today?" queries. He may be preparing epic answers because he's terrified of getting caught.

One caveat: If your romantic life hasn't fallen off, that's no guarantee that he's faithful. "It's a serious mistake to think that affairs are necessarily physical. He may just be unhappy in other parts of the relationship," says Kirshenbaum. In fact, an illicit relationship could even stoke his lust for you.